I'd like to tell you a story. It's called "The Idiot Who Had Depression and Didn't Take Antidepressants Because He Thought It Would Make Him a Person He Isn't And Ended Up Killing Himself." `Seriously though. I'm here to talk about the people I have no sympathy for. Depression is a horrible disease, that ends up killing millions and destroying untold amounts of lives. But this isn't about depression, no. This is about people who refuse to take antidepressants because they think it will make them a person they aren't. This is about the idiots who I have no sympathy for, who have rid the world of their idiocy because they don't understand how depression works. In fact, let's talk about antidepressants, and how they work.
Antidepressants are a type of drug that can be used not only for depression, but for many other things, such as fibromyalgia, anxiety, migraines, snoring, sleep apnea, neurological pain, and many more things. But they are most commonly used for treatment of major depressive disorder (MDD), which is what most people with clinically diagnosed depression have. There are a few different types of depression, but let's just focus on this one. The symptoms aren't just being sad all the time. They include apathy, increased/decreased appetite, insomnia/hypersomnia, irritability, and more. And no, telling people who have depression to "lighten up" or "get over it" does not help, so go staple your mouth shut and throw yourself into the Pacific Ocean, okay? Anyways, back on topic. Antidepressants usually come in four main classes: SSRIs, MAOIs, TCAs, and SNRIs. We'll focus on SSRIs, because they're the main type. So people are worried this will turn them into someone they're not. It won't, they're stupid, end of story. But because I can't leave this post at that, let's talk about what SSRIs do. In short, they increase the amount of serotonin, a neurotransmitter that is regarded as a mood balancer. Some scientists even agree that depression *gasp* is caused by a deficit in serotonin! What this means, is all the people who say antidepressants will make a you a mask, are wrong! You having depression IS YOUR MASK. You on meds? That's the real you. The only person you're benifiting is - get this - NO ONE. If you want to keep hurting the people around you, go right ahead! I don't care if you're hurting yourself, you did it with you're stupid, uneducated view on your personality, thinking that you constantly being sad and hopeless and staring at the canister of pills next to the bottle of whiskey that could send you into peace for the last time is worthy sacrifice for your feeble grasp of identity? Then just do it. Get it over with. I'd rather know that the people you love know you have some peace, rather than struggling with crippling depression AND your own stupidity.
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I'm sure everyone has heard about the delayed flight when someone created a WiFi hotspot called Al-Qaeda Free Terror Network. It is pathetic. It really is. For that decision to made, you need to have a mind boggling amount of stupidity. An amount unhealthy for someone who has that sort of power. Or maybe, it's just paranoia. This is going to be very controversial, about why the US is destroying itself in the name of "antiterrorism."
Let's start with 9/11. The day that rocked the world. Two planes crashed into the North and South towers of the WTC on the morning of Tuesday, September 11, 2001. A third hit the Pentagon, and a fourth was supposed to hit the White House, but was diverted into a field. Every passenger on every plane was killed. After an investigation, it was revealed that the planes were hijacked by members of Al-Qaeda, a global miltant Islamist terrorist group. When this was revealed, it destroyed the US. AMny people might disagree, but it's pretty much true. The government started cutting funding to things like hospitals and schools, and devoted the economy to military. Racism levels skyrocketed. Air associations are spending millions of dollars on stricter regulations, only to have them used in racist, discriminatory ways. It's what the US thinks is right, but it is actually exactly what Al-Qaeda wants them to do. Back to the news article. Basically what happened here is someone created a WiFi hotspot named Al-Qaeda Free Terror Network. When an airport employee took out his phone to connect, he saw this on his connections list. He reported the incident, and in a large chain of stupidity, a flight was delayed needlessly, and now the FBI are investigating. So what this means is someone who did something completely harmless and benign just for s***s and giggles is going to have their life ruined. Because of a string of letters titling the NAME OF A WIFI NETWORK. That is beyond stupid. That is insane. Now 1 person is screwed for life, and a few hundred others aren't going to get on a flight that may be to say goodbye to a dying relative, or to see someone they haven't seen in a very long time, or to attend a funeral for a loved one. Now they might not be able to do this. I am not saying that 9/11 wasn't horrifying, but here's the thing. YOU CANNOT STALL A FLIGHT BECAUSE SOMEBODY NAMED THEIR WIFI HOTSPOT AFTER AN EXTREMIST GROUP. You CAN'T. Life doesn't work that way. And do you really think that an organization intelligent enough to kill hundreds of people with three planes would reveal everything over an unprotected WiFi network? These are things you need to think about before calling for a decision like this. Seriously Ah, yes. I haven't really talked that much about myself and my personal tastes, so here we are. I spend an unhealthy amount of time on the internet, but surprisingly, there are only about 5 or 6 sites I regularly visit. No, Facebook is not one of them. I can't stand Facebook. That's a story for another time, though. So without further ado, let's jump into the top 5 (unarguably) best websites on the interwebs as of today.
#5: The O atmeal Now, this one a lot of you may not know about. The Oatmeal is the brain child of Mathew Inman, a cartoonist and web designer. And he is hilarious. He makes comics when he has time to, and they're amazing. He's a great artist, and his jokes are hilarious. He covers some very controversial topics, tells funny/cool/sad true stories about his life, and has some of the best social commentary I have ever seen. If you have never heard of this site, you simply HAVE to go look at it. Some of the content is a little NSFW, so venture at your own risk. He also has a few published books, so buy those if you want more comics to read. Link to site here. #4: Creepypasta Wiki Oi. This one right here. This one may get TONS of hate, because idiots who have read two terrible stories on it decide to scream how it needs more blood and vampire monster trucks. When the site doesn't deliver because those request are cancerous, they decide to spew their hate onto anyone who gets a remote amount of enjoyment from it, with fun filled pieces such as: wrongly used there/their/they're and you're/your chains, random capital letters, deciding that a certain letter on their keyboard is cursed by Satan and avoiding it at all costs, and just generally acting like evolution didn't exactly like you, so it created a fleshy fun sack made of hotdog meat and degenerative brain disease. /rant. But seriously, wonderful site. It's basically a site for creepy short stories. There's a lot of crap on it, but there are also some absolutely stunning stories. Recommendations: The Sweeping, Penpal, The Disappearance of Ashley, Kansas, NES Godzilla, and anything by Slimebeast except for Red Snow. Oh, and never read Jeff the Killer. It's brutally awful. Link to site here. #3: Twitter This is probably the only massive social network site I use. I don't know why, but this site just appeals to me very well. It might be the fact that everything has to be kept short and sweet, or the hashtags, or the design layout, etc., etc. I really don't know how to explain it, I just love it. It's kind of like the way a man loves a woman, or a man loves a man, or a gorilla loves a kitten. Link to site here. #2: YouTube This site. This site right here. If I haven't watched at least 1000 hours worth of videos on it, The stat counter is wrong. I have about 100 subscriptions, all of which I watch on a given day. The site layout is pretty. Sure it has its issues, but what site doesn't? The channels I sub to are fantastic. I'm not going to say them because I know if I go to look at them, I'll end up not finishing this and getting sucked into a video. I use it to get all of my music, I figure out what games I want with it, I even make my own content for uploading! It's just an amazing site that I probably couldn't live without, but it is not my number 1. Link to site here. Well, here we are. Number 1. Yes these are in specific order. I just said in my last paragraph that a site I probably couldn't live without is not number 1. Not even close. So, what is! Drumroll, please. Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. #1: REDDIT!!! Yes, Reddit. My God, I don't even know where to begin. The community is fantastic. The layout is wonderful. There is an infinite amount of content. You find out about pretty much every news story before anyone else does. You can find great things to buy for any amount of money. You can find great books, movies, shows, animes, cartoons, anything. Easily the best subreddit is AskReddit, where you can learn so much from one thread. Like any site, however, there is some crazy stuff, but use your head and you should be alright. There's just so many amaizng things, inside jokes, hilarious people. Novelty usernames like Poem_for_your_sprog, AWildSketchAppeared, MotivatingGiraffe. Amazing people like _vargas_, Wayfairer, Unidan before he got banned. Infinite PM_ME_(insert something here) usernames. If you haven't already, go make an account and start Redditing. You won't regret it. Unless you accidentally fall into /r/ClopClop. Just don't, whatever you do. It's scary. Link to site here. So, yes, I spend to much time on the Internet, but these are the few sites I visit regularly, which is strange, I know. Go check them out because they are all really great. Just don't end up trapped on them, because they are very addicting. You might juts end up like me. Ah, microtransactions. The reason everyone hates mobile gaming. The reaosn so many FTP games are being destroyed. But most of all, why I can't stand game developers. Well, I'm already three lines in, so I might as well continue.
For those who do not know what microtransactions are, they are items that you can buy for real world money in either PTP or FTP games. And they are sleazy. It is still acceptable to put microtransactions in PTP games, even though you've already payed enough real world money to gain access to the game itself. In FTP games, it's even worse. Most things that you receive through microtransactions (hereon referred to as MT) are either A, worlds better than anything you can receive by playing the game alone, or B, take an unholy amount of time to receive by normally playing the game. Mobile games? Forget about it. Rush upgrades, coin doublers, remove ads, DLC, the list goes on and on of what they push onto you every time you complete a level. But why are they evil? Let me explain why. Let's start about 2 or 3 years ago, in April of 2012. Specifically, April 12, 2012. The day the mobile gaming industry was demolished. This was the day Candy Crush was officially released. This game is why everyone hates, and I mean hates, the mobile gaming industry. Why? This was the first mobile game that was pay to win. What is pay to win? It is the state that most mobile games exist in today. It is a sleazy, game breaking attempt at making more money. Candy Crush incorporated it with the use of lives. Candy Crush is a free to play game on Android and iOS, in which you solve puzzles by moving matching candy around. There's a catch, however. You have limited amount of lives for each level. Everytime you fail, you lose a life. And guess what? When you run out of lives, you're done. But, no need to worry! You can buy more lives with real life money! So yes, they destroyed a perfectly good, fun little puzzle game for the chance to squeeze as much money out of their players as possible. But why is this game such a big deal. Well, this game is what spawned the MT rush in mobile game history. It forever changed the gaming industry, for the worse. Now, almost every free mobile game that isn't arcade style will both have MT and force them on you. This is why I only have a very small amount of mostly paid mobile games. Now, let's talk about bigger games, shall we? For this point, I will be using the wonderful game called Warframe. Warframe is an open world, third person shooter that is free to play on PC, Xbox, and PlayStation. It has pretty graphics, fun mechanics, and addictive gameplay that I have spent hours playing. So why do I hate it so much? Well, that simple reason is the fact that with real world cash dollars, you can get the best of anything in the game. How? Well, in this game, there is a fully functioning, well thought out trading system. They ruined it. They ruined it by making it so that you couldn't trade credits, which you earn in-game, for other things, no, they made it so that you have to trade the currency which can only be obtained through MT. This currency, called Platinum, is only available by either buying it or grinding out for hours on end for rare things, and trading for it. This is what makes me hate this game. It had everything, even a very good trading mechanic. But they destroyed it all for a chance to, again, drain their players' bank accounts. They made it pay to win, which, put in simpler terms, means you can either play the game for hundreds of hours to find loot (mind you, this is extremely rare, and can only be found in very high level game modes) or you can hand over cash to get everything instantly. The game developers tried to hide it, but they hid it about as well as a dump truck in a field of dandelions. They destroyed a perfectly good game just to earn money. If they had scrapped the platinum and charged for the game, it would have been amazing. But they didn't. They lied and called it free when really, it was just a scam. So now that you know about the horrors of MT, how can you stop it? It's very easy. Don't buy into it. Download the game, and don't even pay attention to the constant buy this now ads. Unless you believe the game is truly great and it is a highly reviewed DLC pack, don't bother. If it's a highly reviewed paid game and you want it? That's fine. that's not sleazy. But if it's a game that either bombards you with constant ads about paying 200 dollars to unlock the magic potato staff that kills everything in one hit, or the only way to unlock the magic potato staff is to pay 200 dollars? Move along. Remember, if these games can't get any support, they'll disappear, leaving you with the good ones left. Hold on to your money and buy yourself a cheeseburger. You've earned it. Unhappiness. For some reason, that word seems to hold more of a deeper meaning than sadness, anger, or even depression. Maybe because it's all encompassing. It covers all of the previously mentioned emotions, with plenty more to go. Maybe it's because so many people feel it most of the time. Or maybe, it's because it's so easy to prevent, but people seem to not know how to do so. Do you want to know how? It's simple. Don't listen.
That's right. Don't listen. Tune it out. Et non exaudies. Ok, maybe I'm being a little vague here. I'll explain. But first let's talk about criticism. What is criticism? Criticism is the expression of disapproval of someone or something based on perceived faults or mistakes. So basically it is judgement. Synonyms for this word include attack, disapproval, hatred, among other wonderful things. Why did I want to talk about this? Well, this word, right here, is a direct correlation to unhappiness. You can never be happy if someone is constantly pointing faults out in you, your work, your friends, your choices, your feelings. Sometimes it can be due, when it is strictly constructive, or completely necessary. A lot of times, however it is not. That is why you don't listen to this deconstructive, unnecessary BS that people call criticism. It will pull you down, you will never feel happy at your full potential unless you just STOP CARING ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF YOU. I learned this on my own, and ever since, everything is taken in stride. I feel GOOD. So just stop!!! I feel like if more people knew this earlier, it would make the world better. Take for instance cyberbullying. If nobody cared about what others thought about them, it wouldn't exist, except in those very rare cases where it is unavoidable and terrifying. That being said, unhappiness isn't always unavoidable. You're not trying to block out all negative emotions. You do that, and it will build into a mental illness. We don't want that, now, do we? In conclusion, stop worrying about what others think about you, and you will be happy. If it feels like someone is getting under your skin, avoid them. Block them on whatever social networks you have. Stay away. Do all of these things, but remember to be able to distinguish the difference between destructive and constructive, or else no one will like you, and you will end up lonely. Call Of the Void. Sounds like a cool video game, right? Well, it's not. A movie? Nope. Book? Nada. Song? None of the above. It is almost certainly what you think it is. In truth, it is actually terrifying.
The Call Of the Void, or better known as intrusive thoughts, are really not fun. Intrusive thoughts are the urge you have to jump when you are standing on the edge of a cliff. They are the knowledge that you could kill your friend with the knife you are holding in your hand. They are the feeling that you could uncontrollably hurt someone you know, or maybe someone you don't. They're unpleasant, unwelcome, and most of all, scary. They say the devil you know is better than the one you don't. That is especially true with the call of the void (henceforth known as COTV.) You have no idea when someone could be thinking these terrible things. But even scarier is the thought that they could become obsessions to some people. For people with OCD, PTSD, depression, BDD, and even ADHD, that is a real possibility. They might even act these thoughts out. This doesn't mean you should stop trusting everyone, it's very rare, and multiple other signs would tell you if a certain someone would act upon these thoughts. Psychopathy is very real however, so be careful. Well, now you know COTV is actually quite scary and quite real. Nobody knows exactly why these happen. They may be your brain relieving stress, showing the worst case scenario, or just random synapses firing off. Who knows? So, how many do you have in an average day? None, a few, or... a lot? So, your wife asks you how the new dress she got from the store looks on her. In your opinion, it doesn't look all that great, but you don't say that. You say it looks gorgeous, beautiful, makes her eyes pop, etcetera, etcetera. What was that? That, my dear friends, was a lie. So you just lied. Great! Why does it matter?
When you were little, you were always taught NOT to lie, under any circumstances. Fast forward several years, and you find yourself lying pretty much everyday. Well, that might just be me, but nonetheless, what happened to those years of teaching? When did lying suddenly turn into something not only acceptable to you, but something you do on a regular basis? There is no specific year, but it happens to EVERYBODY. Yes, no matter how good you think you are, you've lied before. In fact, you're doing it ALL. THE. TIME. Now, you may be saying "Are you crazy? All the time? I don't even talk all the time!!!" That's because my definition of lying is much different than yours. The dictionary definition of the word "lie" is "an intentionally false statement." I don't feel like that's correct. That's what it once MIGHT have been, but it's definitely not anymore. My definition of lying is "denying yourself of saying, feeling, or doing as you want." So not only does that cover the Google definition of a lie, it goes way down into how humans tick. Every time you think of something that you want to do, but don't do said thing, you are lying. You are lying to all the people who would have seen you do that thing. Sure, they may not know it, but you will. Every time you think of something that you want to say to someone, or how you see that same someone, but don't say it? You are lying. You are lying to them by not saying what you REALLY think. It may not be a false statement, but you aren't telling them what you really think about them, their clothes, their voice, their personality, it doesn't matter. When you are feeling incredibly sad, or scared, or even happy, and decide to bottle that up inside, you are lying. But to whom? Yourself. You are lying to yourself because you are trying to say that you are something that you aren't. Now that you know MY definition of lying, it should be self explanatory why humanity needs lying. In case it isn't, however, I'll tell you why. Humans are the apex predator, the pinnacle of evolution, the top of the tower. Why are we like that? We have a MASSIVE amount of intelligence compared to every other creature on Earth. That's not why, though. We are the biggest and the baddest because we are SENTIENT. We have self awareness, art, culture, the works. If we were to all disappear today, we would leave behind a wealth of information for whatever is among the stars to find. With sentiency comes multiple other elements that make us who we are, but the one I'm focusing on is self control. In order to have this self control, we have to LIE. We have to deny ourselves from stripping down and running screaming down the street naked with our armpit hair on fire because, well, that would be CRAZY! We need to have our self control because that's what makes us human. There is another side to the spectrum, though. We all lie to ourselves TOO MUCH. We bottle up what we actually feel, want, need, and think because we don't want to hurt people. You need to stop lying to yourself all the time and tell the truth every once in a while! Well, you read the entire thing. Congratulations! Remember, the next time your wife asks you how that dress looks, or your friend asks how you really feel, take a chance. Try telling the truth for once. Don't do it to hurt people, but if it's harmless, let it out. Say what you really think, or feel. It might help, it might hurt. Now you'll know. Remember, it's not just about everyone else but yourself as well. Go skydiving. Take a random road trip by yourself. Laugh when you're happy and cry when you're sad. Wrap yourself in garbage bags and run down the street, screaming, "THE BRITISH ARE COMING! THE BRITISH ARE COMING!" Do it like no one is watching. But don't get too crazy. You might just end up like me. |